So, I was suspicious that I was living in a hole for a couple months, but I wasn't sure of it until I began to climb out into spring time. Now that I'm leaving the pit, I feel very relieved and I have lots of motivation, but I will still have to deal with the consequences of my lack of motivation during the last few months.
As long as I don't get sucked back in, I will make it.
Jesus, don't let me go back.